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Reflecting: On You

 

In
the
dawn

.

of
my
quest

~

I
take
pause
.

and
assess;

~

All
the
light

.

I
have
known

~

in
this
sphere

.

I
call
home;

~

It’s
your

.

unyielding
grace

~

like
a

.

sea
of
embrace;

~

Sharing
beauty

.

and
song

~

Lending
hope

.

ever
strong;

~

Now
I
stop

.

and
reflect

~

Waves
of

.

love
.

and
respect;

~

Knowing

.

while
we’re
apart

~

in
your
hands

.

rests
my

heart.

~

©Robyn Lee

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To YOU:  my precious friends,

Do not worry — I promise to return as soon as I can! The time has come for me to embark on more in-depth medical explorations. It has been nearly 3 years since having undergone  bilateral hip surgeries gone wrong.  I have since learned that my hip sockets were extremely shallow from the start, and having a very flexible body-type, the surgery designed to repair my labrum and eliminate impingement by shaving bone, only served to make my hips more unstable.

Although I have given my all to an extensive program of strength and movement training, and conservative healing in every possible sense, I continue to experience progressive severe and constant daily pain and ongoing hip dislocation.

Unfortunately, I spend the majority of my waking hours exercising (non-weight bearing), and manipulating…trying to persuade my femur to stay its very shallow, unstable hip socket (I have no bone covering the front and side of my femoral head, and a labrum that is detached again). I spend a lot of time on the floor!

I  truly hoped to avoid this next leg of my journey, as I would so much rather spend my time at the beach and here with you! Nonetheless, even as I have achieved optimum strength and fitness, obtaining  glutes of steel, and legs appearing fit enough to run races, I cannot go on living with this level of pain and functional limitation on a daily basis.  The simple acts of walking, and sitting in a chair elevate my pain to levels I won’t even try to describe.  Thankfully I have been able to continue my biking and mat routines, squatting etc.   The truth is, I love life way too much, and want to participate in ALL of it.

I am scheduled to undergo several specialized tests this week at an esteemed orthopedic hospital in NYC, and will be consulting with surgeons and specialists over the next few months  in an attempt to formulate a sound plan of action for my complex case.  In the meantime, I will be posting on my blog  less often, but will do my best to continue visiting all of yours,  and providing updates whenever I can.

Please know how much you all mean to me … your love and support has been a true lifeline over the past two years.  I am not sure how I could have survived this challenge without all of you incredible souls.   Deep Thanks ~ and loving wishes always.

With all my heart,
Robyn

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Lonicera Japonica

 

Breath
of
seduction

~

Infusing
the
air;

~

No
proposal

nor
prelude

~

No
time

to
prepare;

~

Sweet
balm
bewilders

~

Distraction
delights;

~

Dewy
flesh

clinging
softly

~

to
ripe
appetite;

~

This
feeling

~

This
hunger

~

These
lips

shall
not
wait;

~

Craving

~

honey–laced

promise

~

to

Intoxicate.

 

©Robyn Lee

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Fervor

 

Endure
her
heat

.

Adore
her
power

.

Engage
her
blaze

.

in

the
fervent
hour;

~

Watch
form
emerge

.

in

her
scarlet
dance

.

Revere
her
spell

.

Resign
her
trance;

~

But

.

You
mustn’t
touch

.

for

.

she
won’t
be
tamed

~

Rousing
spark
of

.

h e a r t

.

Your

eternal
flame.
~

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Embody

 

A
Fantasy

.

you
are

to
me;

~

A
Lover

.

who
won’t
cease

to
be;

~

A
Song

.

of

summer
reverie;

~

A
Prayer

.

that
grants
my

wistful
plea.

~

A
Dream

.

immersed
in

ecstasy;

~

Forever

~

You

~

Embody

Me.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Mono No Aware

 

 

Wake
up

my love

’tis
spring

~

I’ve
come

with
offerings

~

songs
of
beauty

I
shall
sing

~

sweet
new
gifts

my
essence

brings;

……….

Wake up
my
love

’tis
spring

~

I’m right
outside

your
door

~

Do
you

notice

my
allure?

~

or

~

feel
the
breadth
of

my
adore?

……….

Wake
up

my love

’tis
spring

~

I’m
here

to

help
you
see

~

just
how
blissful

life
could
be

~

when
you
know

the
depths

of
me;

……….

Wake
up
my love

’tis
spring

~

Watch
me
blushing

in
the
breeze

~

let me
charm
you

as
I
please

~

soothe
your
soul 

~

with

~

grace
and
ease:
……….

Wake
up
my love

’tis
spring!

~

But
you

mustn’t

stop
or
wait

~

don’t
loose
sight

or
hesitate

~

for
tomorrow

~

’tis

too
late.

©Robyn Lee

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Please click here to learn more about the spiritual philosophy
that provided inspiration for this piece :  Mono No Aware 


Under Watch

Upon
your
throne

~

erect
and
tall;

~

Your
lofty
post

~

above
us
all;

~

Like
king

or
knight,

~

with
noble
reign,

~

defend
our
bliss

~

assert
restrain.

~

Beneath
your
watch,

~

with
strict
decree,

~

protect
our
lives,

~

Dear
Guard

~

of

Sea.

~

©Robyn Lee

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 feature image originally published 6/24/2012: Stillness


He Moves Me

Shalt
not
disturb

^

As
I
observe

^

His
form
commence

^

A
primal
dance;

^^^

I
stop

to
stare

^

I
dare

to
near

^

Can
feel

the
flow

^

Caught
in

his
trance;

^^^

With
gentle
strength

^

A
fluid
length

^

His
motion
finds

^

Artistic
grace;

^^^

He
fills

his
soul

^

Then
empties
whole

^

and

^

Moves
me

to

^

His
sacred
space.

^^^

©Robyn Lee

598821_4868298350183_446568124_nWarm thanks to the wonderful gentleman featured in my post today for permitting me
to share this candid photograph. My subject {Muse} has respectfully requested anonymity to preserve his privacy.

~
Hope You’ve Enjoyed!

~

Much Love to All

~
RL


Our Path

“Come now
my
love,”

~

you
softly
say;

~

I
close
my eyes;

~

I
slip
away.

~

“Walk
swift,
our path,”

~

your
whisper
pleads;

~

I
find
my
breath

~

concede
my
need.

~

You
mark
the  trails

~

with
pines
of
gold;

~

You
guide
my
steps

~

whilst
truths
unfold;

~

Beneath
our
tree

~

I wait
for
you,

~

unearthing
dreams

~

we
never
knew.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Freewheeling

Ride me to freedom
Spinning dreams on silver ground
Destination unknown

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click here to read a short personal narrative
pertaining to this image: Freewheeling ~ narrative


Pain Shadow (on exhibit)

~

On the deserted beach
I walk with a pain shadow.
Hip searing with each step
I move forward slowly.

My joint tears away.
A sharp arrow pierces through me.
I stop to find stillness yet the
pain shadow follows.

Gazing into the ocean,
I inhale deeply
then exhale with force
trying to release the pain.

But it won’t let go.

I must abandon this pain shadow.
This constant companion.
This unwelcome thing.
That has attached itself to me.

19 years of unrelenting pain.
Countless attempts to escape
to normal days, when the beach
meant walks and waves; picnics and laughter.

I climb the wooden stairs to look down
on the wide expanse of shoreline.
In pain I stand tall above the sprawling
desolate beach that goes on forever.

I envision myself burying the pain shadow
beneath the sandy surface,
deep in a restrictive dark hole
where it can no longer define my world.

And in that moment I am free.

~

©Robyn Lee: March 2012

recently selected for exhibit in the gallery  Escape From Pain – PainExhibit.org

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I am honored to announce that the above artistic photograph and accompanying prose poem has been selected for gallery inclusion at PainExhibit.org | A California Non-Profit Art Exhibit.  PainExhibit.org is an educational, visual arts exhibit by artists with chronic pain . The global not-for- profit organization is dedicated to creating awareness amongst healthcare providers and the public about chronic pain through art, and to give voice to the many who suffer in silence. I learned about this organization after reading an article in the NY Times featuring the organization and its mission.  Here is a link to the article  Pain as an Art Form – NYTimes.com.  Immediately I felt aligned with the goals and intention of this organization, and was moved by the works shared at the exhibit.

My Pain Shadow  (above) was an early post that I published about a year ago.  It was the 2nd piece in my  blog’s Pain Shadow Series,  and the first poetic/prose piece I wrote that reflected my innermost feelings about living the past 19+ years with severe chronic pain and health challenge.  As someone who has always done her best to bring as little attention as possible to her dilemma, I confess, this was a difficult piece to share publicly.  At the same time, I now realize it was also a transformational experience for me;  By creating art,  and opening my heart to others about this isolating and life-altering plight , I quickly learned  how beauty and art can be born of pain…how this art can inspire compassion, and can heal both artist and viewer.

After some encouragement by a dear friend, I submitted my work last winter to PainExhibit.org.  I’d nearly forgotten about the submission, when several months later, I was notified that my entry was indeed accepted, and would be included in the collection of  art displayed at the gallery entitled: Escape From Pain.  Please visit PainExhibit.org to learn more about this unique exhibit, and explore a variety of amazing works in the various galleries housed there.  I am extremely proud and honored to be a part of this collection, and the organization’s important mission.

Pain, especially when chronic, is a very difficult subject to understand and embrace. Often pain cannot be seen, and it is nearly impossible to articulate. Quite frankly, it is an isolating and frightening place to be. Art, whether it be through written word, painting, sculpture, photography, music or other, offers a powerful vehicle for universal expression and transformation. Pain channeled through the creative process allows both the artist and the observer a meaningful and deep connection, one that speaks directly to the heart of  the human experience.

With my whole heart, I want to take this opportunity to thank all of you who follow and support me, and my blog work.  Over the last year, this sacred space has become such an important part of my life, and of my healing path.  Always know how much your friendship, love and support of my artistic endeavors means to me. Each of you have touched me, and enriched my world through your presence and appreciation, and for this I am so grateful.

Much Love ~
Robyn Lee


Love’s Wings

Guide the way,
I’m  by
your
side

~

We’ll fly
beyond a
vast red
sky;

~

Above
the sea’s
ecstatic
waves

~

Around
a solar
flame
engraved;

~

You won’t
see me, but
feel my
fire

~

Pure heat that
fuels your
soul’s
desire;

~

There are no
rules, nor
risk…or
will

~

On
wings
of
love

~

where
worlds
stand
still.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Blue Venus II


Waves
 of
inspiration

flow

from 
hearts
that 

love

~

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On Monday I received an email from my dear friend, Monica,
a very special lady I  first crossed paths with in the fall of 2010.
Facing similar challenges, Monica and I found the gift of friendship
after meeting on an internet medical support forum. Since that time,
we have become sisters of the soul… And, for this, I’m so grateful.

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After admiring Resa’s spectacular masterpiece art-gown Blue Venus this weekend,
 Monica sent me a wonderful poem she composed, explaining
that
 she was inspired by the stunning gown, combined with
the spirit she envisioned I would wear it.

I am deeply touched by her graceful heart, and
wanted to share her poetic healing words with each of you today.

 Paired with a shadow self-portrait, please enjoy this 3rd level
of artistic inspiration born of Resa’s  Blue Venus
 
Truly captivating verse, crafted by a very
talented poetess, and
beautiful friend.

Thank you
Monica!

With so much Love
~
Robyn Lee

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~

Wrapped in clouds and sky

her footfall gentle on the sand

eyes shining with bravery

trailing tranquility in her wake.

~

 Garbed in shimmering blue

Grecian goddess dancing

with iridescent fish from the sea

to the melody of hope and love.

~

Floating in sapphire silk,

singing to the ocean and stars

the wind answers back

as she walks like the night,  in beauty.

~
©Monica


Cast Ashore

where
debris
drifts ashore

~

forming
edges
and lines;

~

where
memories
tumble

~

and
hope
is
defined;

~

where
lovers
have
lingered

~

and

faith
has been
born;

~

where
sun’s
tender kiss

~

precedes
hurricane’s
scorn;

~

where
wind
swirls

its
promise;

~

embodied
deep in the
grain,

~

sculptures
of
life
grow

~

amidst
shadows
of
pain.

~

©Robyn Lee

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I  want to let everyone know that I will be leaving town this weekend for an undefined period of time.  I will be flying to another state to  consult with a medical professional in order to determine  whether I might benefit from  working with him privately on a very specific functional training program he developed, in efforts to help stabilize my joints, and better hold them in their sockets.

It is  past the 2 year mark now, since my bilateral hip surgeries ( arthroscopic repair of  labrum tears and bone impingement). I have done all humanly possible to recover  from this surgery , and regain some degree of normal function, but my situation continues to worsen, and the pain remains unrelenting.

As an update to My Story which I wrote about a year ago… it was recently determined that I have congenitally shallow anterior hip sockets (hip dysplasia) in addition to very loose ligaments (body-wide).  Thus this last  surgery in which my bone was carved, and joint capsule violated in order to do the repairs mentioned, did not serve me, and has seemingly rendered my joints more unstable.

I hope that I will be a candidate for this specialized training program with a functional movement expert I have sought out personally, and  have great faith in. Through dedication and hard work, I’m hoping to develop even greater body awareness, and gain enhanced  neuromuscular control of my ball/socket joints, increasing stability and reducing pain. As you might imagine, I  am trying desperately to avoid further surgeries, which  the experts warn, offer “no guarantees”.

Although I may be away  for several weeks now, I hope to have internet, and my wireless devices handy, and will  keep a good eye on everyone here ~ reading posts as much as possible, and hopefully posting some too.

Sending much Love and Light to all of you,
who have been, and continue to be
such an incredible source of strength
and inspiration in my life.

~
Robyn Lee


Just When You…

Just when you
believed
you
knew

~

the
beauty;

the
magic;

the
rapture;

of
our

brilliant
winter
sun

setting herself
over
the

eager
majestic
sea;

~

you
suddenly
realize

that,

in
essence,

~

you
know

~

nothing
at
all.

©Robyn Lee

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Thirst

Rippling liquid song

Fluent language; native tongue

I bow to your quench

©Robyn Lee

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