Reflecting: On You

 

In
the
dawn

.

of
my
quest

~

I
take
pause
.

and
assess;

~

All
the
light

.

I
have
known

~

in
this
sphere

.

I
call
home;

~

It’s
your

.

unyielding
grace

~

like
a

.

sea
of
embrace;

~

Sharing
beauty

.

and
song

~

Lending
hope

.

ever
strong;

~

Now
I
stop

.

and
reflect

~

Waves
of

.

love
.

and
respect;

~

Knowing

.

while
we’re
apart

~

in
your
hands

.

rests
my

heart.

~

©Robyn Lee

To YOU:  my precious friends,

Do not worry — I promise to return as soon as I can! The time has come for me to embark on more in-depth medical explorations. It has been nearly 3 years since having undergone  bilateral hip surgeries gone wrong.  I have since learned that my hip sockets were extremely shallow from the start, and having a very flexible body-type, the surgery designed to repair my labrum and eliminate impingement by shaving bone, only served to make my hips more unstable.

Although I have given my all to an extensive program of strength and movement training, and conservative healing in every possible sense, I continue to experience progressive severe and constant daily pain and ongoing hip dislocation.

Unfortunately, I spend the majority of my waking hours exercising (non-weight bearing), and manipulating…trying to persuade my femur to stay its very shallow, unstable hip socket (I have no bone covering the front and side of my femoral head, and a labrum that is detached again). I spend a lot of time on the floor!

I  truly hoped to avoid this next leg of my journey, as I would so much rather spend my time at the beach and here with you! Nonetheless, even as I have achieved optimum strength and fitness, obtaining  glutes of steel, and legs appearing fit enough to run races, I cannot go on living with this level of pain and functional limitation on a daily basis.  The simple acts of walking, and sitting in a chair elevate my pain to levels I won’t even try to describe.  Thankfully I have been able to continue my biking and mat routines, squatting etc.   The truth is, I love life way too much, and want to participate in ALL of it.

I am scheduled to undergo several specialized tests this week at an esteemed orthopedic hospital in NYC, and will be consulting with surgeons and specialists over the next few months  in an attempt to formulate a sound plan of action for my complex case.  In the meantime, I will be posting on my blog  less often, but will do my best to continue visiting all of yours,  and providing updates whenever I can.

Please know how much you all mean to me … your love and support has been a true lifeline over the past two years.  I am not sure how I could have survived this challenge without all of you incredible souls.   Deep Thanks ~ and loving wishes always.

With all my heart,
Robyn

July 26, 2013 | Categories: Nature, Pain Shadow Series, Spiritual, Summer 2013 | Tags: beauty, blogging recess, encouragment, followers, friendship, grace, heart, hip dislocation, hip dysplasia, hip instability, hope, kindred spirits, Love, medical investigations, nature, photography, poetry, quest, reflection, Robyn Lee, spirit, support, surgery | 224 Comments