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I want to let everyone know that I will be leaving town this weekend for an undefined period of time. I will be flying to another state to consult with a medical professional in order to determine whether I might benefit from working with him privately on a very specific functional training program he developed, in efforts to help stabilize my joints, and better hold them in their sockets.
It is past the 2 year mark now, since my bilateral hip surgeries ( arthroscopic repair of labrum tears and bone impingement). I have done all humanly possible to recover from this surgery , and regain some degree of normal function, but my situation continues to worsen, and the pain remains unrelenting.
As an update to My Story which I wrote about a year ago… it was recently determined that I have congenitally shallow anterior hip sockets (hip dysplasia) in addition to very loose ligaments (body-wide). Thus this last surgery in which my bone was carved, and joint capsule violated in order to do the repairs mentioned, did not serve me, and has seemingly rendered my joints more unstable.
I hope that I will be a candidate for this specialized training program with a functional movement expert I have sought out personally, and have great faith in. Through dedication and hard work, I’m hoping to develop even greater body awareness, and gain enhanced neuromuscular control of my ball/socket joints, increasing stability and reducing pain. As you might imagine, I am trying desperately to avoid further surgeries, which the experts warn, offer “no guarantees”.
Although I may be away for several weeks now, I hope to have internet, and my wireless devices handy, and will keep a good eye on everyone here ~ reading posts as much as possible, and hopefully posting some too.
Sending much Love and Light to all of you,
who have been, and continue to be
such an incredible source of strength
and inspiration in my life.
You might be leaving for awhile but you will be in my thoughts and prayers through these moments. Pls keep in touch. My email is email@example.com. Love and light, dear friend.
January 24, 2013 at 10:00 PM
Thank you so much dearest Millie ~ that is so sweet, andI really hope to be in touch. If i’m able to stay – will set up house there near the rehab facility. Love and Light your way always ~ Robyn
January 24, 2013 at 10:36 PM
You are a woman of strength and faith. You will find peace and health.
January 25, 2013 at 8:51 AM
Brilliant pairing of photo and poem. Absolutely love it! May your travels help leave the pain shadows behind.
January 24, 2013 at 10:11 PM
Oh thank you so much Jill ~ I am so thrilled that you commented on the art here 😉 — means a lot coming from you, knowing your profession, level of skill and artistic discretion in this realm. Also huge knowing you understand the pain-shadow and its essence as well. So appreciate your support and encouragement all around!
Much Love and Light to you ~
January 25, 2013 at 2:35 AM
I keep coming back to see/read this post. It has become one of my favorites. Poetry, picture, pain… they all come together beautifully here.
January 31, 2013 at 7:27 PM
I hope all works out in your favor. I will keep you in my prayers.
January 24, 2013 at 10:12 PM
Thank you so much Kim ~ so appreciate your loving wishes, how are you feeling — hoping flare is history now?! ~ xo Robyn
January 24, 2013 at 10:36 PM
Be well. You inspire us. Take care of yourself on this journey.
January 24, 2013 at 10:13 PM
So much thanks Lady Lovely ~ means a lot! x Robyn
January 24, 2013 at 10:39 PM
Oh Robyn… I will be praying for you and holding even closer now in my heart. I wish I had a way to help… Stay strong dear one. You are tough and strong, I pray this passes quickly
January 24, 2013 at 10:23 PM
Thank you so much boomie ~ I so appreciate — and our hearts will be closer than you think!!! 😉 ~ If I stay, we may even have a chance to meet ~ So much Love ~ RL
January 24, 2013 at 10:40 PM
Oh nice :). It will be an absolute pleasure
January 24, 2013 at 10:41 PM
🙂 bringing leg warmers — good idea? xxoo
January 24, 2013 at 10:53 PM
Oh yes, its freezing…brrr…I wear tights under my jeans now lol
January 24, 2013 at 11:33 PM
Thank you sweetie — here too — like 11 degrees today … so guess I will be ready for anything — “hope” will keep me warm 🙂 ~
January 24, 2013 at 11:37 PM
I feel a huge surge of hope for you Robyn and am so glad this is happening. Oh and that poem is magnificent, and the photo, but not as magnificent as you. Much love – Juliexxx
January 24, 2013 at 10:32 PM
Thank you so much dear Julie ~ yes — hopeful and this will at least be a valuable learning journey — perhaps more — I have hand picked this guy after stalking his webinars and books/articles for 2 years. Just sense he is a healer, a brilliant teacher and a wonderful soul….. I hope I’m right —
So happy you enjoyed the poem and self-portrait — just seemed to work out with the timing of this trip…. Love to you sweet friend ~ xo RL
January 24, 2013 at 10:43 PM
May this journey bear joyous fruits. It’s time for you to enter Eden.♥
January 24, 2013 at 10:38 PM
I LOVE that idea eremophila — I am soooo ready for a taste of Eden…. Thank you sweet soul… really do appreciate! Love, RL
January 24, 2013 at 10:43 PM
Always keep me listed so I can believe with you for the best. I care about you. So very much love, Sheri
January 24, 2013 at 10:43 PM
Absolutely Sheri ~ I am planning to keep up with my blog-reads ~ and your “Dear Human” ones are fantastic — Thank you for your loving wishes and caring thoughts — means a lot ~ Love to you ~ RL
January 24, 2013 at 10:45 PM
dear friend Robyn, I lift you in prayer for health. my bronchoscopy went well today and look forward to solutions.
January 24, 2013 at 10:50 PM
So grateful dear Jane ~ I know your heart by now and always appreciate… thank goodness things went well today for you.
Blessings and Love ~ Robyn
January 24, 2013 at 11:18 PM
Praying this brings you relief from the pain.
January 24, 2013 at 11:00 PM
Thank you so much dear Noah ~ I am hopeful… and will keep doing my “donkey-kicks” if my new trainer gives me thumbs up ~ 🙂 Love and Light ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 12:57 AM
Sending you lots of warm wishes for a positive outcome, to what will probably be, a tedious and painful journey in your life. I can only hope for the very best of help from a professional(s) who knows exactly what you need to stabilise your hips and spine. No doubt it will be very hard work (both mentally & physically).
We would all love to hear some brief updates on this pain reducing journey you are undertaking, but don’t attempt to do too much computer work if you’re exhausted from the day’s routine (while you’re away). Nothing is worse than trying to keep up on the computer when you’re in serious pain – take it from another long-term chronic pain sufferer.
Lot of Love and Healing Thoughts across the miles
January 24, 2013 at 11:06 PM
Thanks so much Victoria. I am a bit nervous -but also excited. The whole travel thing and being away from comforts of home will be difficult. I have a lot of faith in this doctor (physical medicine) I am consulting with only because I have personally examined his approach myself – and know he has keen insight that others in his field lack. After living in this body all this time and figuring out my own methods of relief — and now understanding my anatomy better given the latest findings — I think this guy will at least be able to tell me if I have hope without more invasive surgery. It won’t be a fast fix — and I know that — but need more than youtube and working on this on my own here. Locally I have not been able to find anyone who understands the complexities of joint instability the way this doctor does… and he’s willing to work with me several days a week one – on -one (if we agree I’m a candidate).
Hoping it all goes well and I can do some posting and updating. Do know what you mean about computer use with pain – especially now that my shoulders have really joined the party. You take good care of you ~ and thank you my sweet friend for all your wonderful wishes….
ps: how’s my image up there – btw ??? Pretty good shading, texture and detail yes? 1st shadow portrait with new camera ~ LOL !
January 25, 2013 at 1:05 AM
I was so intent on your health stuff, I forgot to mention your photo. It’s looking good, Robyn. The detail is excellent and you’ve got the ‘shadow’ in a good spot for the composition. I thought the verse was excellent too (as usual).
January 25, 2013 at 7:25 PM
That is what I thought too ~ 🙂 Thank you — was not all sure and got a thumbs up from a personal friend who teaches and is a professional photographer… Think the details in the sand are very vidvid with the DSLR as opposed to before. The verse sort of reflects where I’m at emotionally right now — trying to be open to all of life… not always easy ~ Love to you Victoria! xo
January 26, 2013 at 12:28 PM
Good Evening Robyn~
I am still smiling because I got to give you a sweet little surprise. 🙂
Reading this made me cry. I can only imagine how desperate you feel to avoid surgery and any further abuse on your poor body. I feel very good about what you are doing and know that no matter, you will come home armed with more knowledge than you left with. That alone is priceless when burdened by illnesses and conditions that nobody really understands.
Please email whenever you feel the need to vent, chat, cry, be heard. I am always here – firstname.lastname@example.org. That will take you thru to my usual email address or you can use that if it comes thru with my comment here. And if there is silence from your direction, I am going to assume that means fabulous things!! Incredibly fabulous things are happening. Either way take heart, dear one. Life is what it is and we do our very best. You are doing nothing less than that and so much more.
Much love and strength for you from me, linda
January 24, 2013 at 11:09 PM
Me too Linda ~ you made my night ~~ with your wonderful send-off post:
— Color Stream ~ For Robyn Lee http://countrywomanpaints.com/2013/01/24/color-stream/
It was an incredible surprise and such a generous loving gesture. I loved the painting too. Very special… A little apprehensive about taking on the travel and potentially living so far from home for an extended time… but also feel proactive in exploring this with someone I really have confidence in. I can only do so much on my own and know my issues are mechanical and cannot be managed with medication. More invasive surgery is very risky for me…. Must learn to keep the balls in their sockets 🙂 and keep them happy there!!
I hope I’m doing the right thing… but as you said – at least will be a learning journey for me. Hope my gut instincts about this guru is correct. I will check in for sure … not to worry – hopefully with some positive news too. You are too kind Linda ~ and yes – we can only “do our best… and our best is good enough” ~ this is my mantra ~ So much Love and Healing Hugs to you dearest friend ~ Robynx
January 25, 2013 at 1:16 AM
Please stay in touch to keep us updated with your progress. Keep a good attitude and stay strong. I am hoping for the very best for you. Was just beginning to enjoy your friendship. I have dealt with long term health problems and know what you must be going through (had a heart transplant 3.5 yrs ago after 20+ yrs of problems). Not being “punny”, my heart is with you and hope the new therapy will give you relief. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
January 24, 2013 at 11:26 PM
Thank you dearest Paul. I will ~ and so appreciate your encouragement and support. Certainly will keep in touch as much as possible. I can imagine you have had your share of chronic challenges too then… goodness, 20+ years … and the transplant was the solution? That is incredible to hear… and so very thankful that you managed through all the struggle. I have no doubt you are stronger for having travelled that road. This will be an experiment and learning experience ~ and hopeful provide me better insight in what my next move should be…. Much Love to you friend ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 12:07 PM
Just wake up in the morning, put one foot in front of the other…, and hope for the best. ~Paul
January 25, 2013 at 12:27 PM
Robyn – My prayers and soft hugs wing your way. We are all learning to become our own best advocates and researchers for what we believe in our hearts is best for our bodies and our souls.
January 24, 2013 at 11:36 PM
Sheri thank you sweet lady, and you are so right! I have become an expert in all things muscles/joints/connective tissue over these years… and firmly believe we must advocate for ourselves ~ and be very careful about turning our bodies over to so-called experts. I have learned (the hard way) we must value our our intuitive sense when it comes to making these choices. I’m hoping at least for better insight after this trip. So appreciate all of your love and support here always ~ Blessings and Love to you ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 12:11 PM
good luck, good luck, good luck! i hope that this work is successful! we’re sending you lots of healing energy from all corners of the globe! z
January 24, 2013 at 11:42 PM
Aww – thank you Lisa – sweet friend. I am optimistic that this will be, if nothing else, an important learning experience for me. This practitioner is very holistic minded btw (know that you will value that) ~ but in addition, is nothing less than a brilliant “engineer” when it comes to knowing the intricacies of anatomy and body mechanics too. So hopeful ~ and can feel all the good healing energy radiating from the world for me … Much Love to you ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 12:13 PM
how wonderful it would be for this person to be able to help you back to better health. sending you lots of positive vibes… z
January 26, 2013 at 12:02 AM
so much thanks ~ will keep in touch ~ xo
January 26, 2013 at 12:26 PM
Hi Robyn, Hope you’ll be fine. Don’t lose hope. All of us will pray for you..and try to post at least once a week, if possible.
January 25, 2013 at 12:18 AM
nightlake, thank you my dearest friend. I am maintaining all the optimism I can. Not sure what will transpire and if I will be a good candidate for this approach – but certainly feel good about exploring it before more invasive and risky intervention. I will be checking in whenever I can — no worries — hopefully with happy news –and photos from another city! ~ Love to you always, Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 12:16 PM
My prayers to a quick recovery to you! We’ll be having you in mind 🙂 your poems and blog are a true inspiration
to all of us. The courage you show in such a situation is truly… there are not many words that can describe it properly.
If you don’t mind me asking, did you try and direct yourself to alternative pain management as EFT for example?
When classical medicine fails to help, it might be an idea.
All the best of luck and hopefully this time will be the good one!
January 25, 2013 at 1:20 AM
So much thanks for your good thoughts and prayers my way! I am thrilled you enjoy my work, and very touched to know this.
In answer to your question – YES ~ have done extensive work in EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) ~ also have read Bruce Lipton’s “Biology of Belief” ~ amongst hundreds of other alternative work in this arena. I am open and receptive to all of it. Classical medicine has not served me well – and thus I was determined to create miracles with the power of the mind and emotional healing. I wish I could say it has helped me in the physical sense (has not – though who knows how much worse off I would be without these tools) but has absolutely helped me cope and grow in so many ways. I will be” tapping” away on the airplane Sunday 🙂 ~ thank you sweet friend for offering me this to contemplate. I never underestimate the power of the spirit, the mind, and the heart. Love and Light to you always ~
January 25, 2013 at 1:21 PM
Thanks Robyn Lee and much success with your undertaking. I admire your courage and the light you spread to all those who get in touch with you. May you be blessed with all good things 🙂
January 26, 2013 at 3:22 PM
so much appreciate ~ hope to check in soon ~ Have you practiced EFT ~? Helpful?? ~ Love to you! ~RL
January 26, 2013 at 3:29 PM
I did. For the emotional part which brought tremendous release. I did the core beliefs too, of Psych-K and that was groundbreaking. I listened on you tube to Byron Katie which was a revelation and you surely have heard of Louise Hay and Dr. Wayne Dyer. But that was all for the emotional, for the physical I usually go to my Cranial osteopath, use homeopathy, eat Macrobiotic style to keep healthy and my asthma at bay… but as you say it is not always possible to stick to the natural side when as you wrote on your blog, you have this physical problem which acquires surgery.
I’d like this info to be of value one day to people around me, it would be nice to be able to help through my experience 🙂
January 26, 2013 at 3:54 PM
Like everyone else here, my thoughts and prayers will be with you Robyn. I hope you can get sorted sooner rather than later.
January 25, 2013 at 1:59 AM
So much love and appreciation to you Alastair — you have a huge and tender heart – I can feel it! ~ RL
January 25, 2013 at 1:22 PM
🙂 Thank you Robyn. I am just me.
January 25, 2013 at 1:31 PM
Such wonderful words and photo… yet some how your future well being seems to circumvent my need to comment on them rather though to comment on your travel to improve your quality of life without pain and further surgery… may this person be the answer to your prayers, and be able to help you suffer less and be painless… my wish is that all is so successful that in time we will see such words and photos of you in a non suffering way… Robyn I pray that you will get help and it will be so successful… Go well my friend, not seeing you on every post of mine will tell me that you are rather concentrating on your own well being… I will miss you but your health is just so much more important… go well knowing I am think about you and praying that you are helped beyond all your own wishes…
January 25, 2013 at 2:18 AM
I know bulldog — nobody is giving me any kudos for my awesome shadow portrait and cool poem!!!!! LOL ~ what is the deal here?! Being silly of course…and know how much I appreciate all the genuine love and well-wishes from everyone here… and especially YOU! I have no idea where this will lead, but after 2 years of waiting for the miracle to happen and trying everything I can think of on my own, I sought out the person (thanks to the world-wide web) who I just felt “got it” where the body mechanics is concerned. Not sure if I’m too “broken” to go this route, but before I jump onto an operating table again – I am sure as hell going to check out whatever proactive method I can to help manage this condition.
I love your vision of my being able to post words and photos with ease (sans pain). Seems almost like a dream. Still ~ I know I have been blessed in so many ways — having a loving family and supportive friends – and especially for having this special oasis of ours here at WordPress to lift me up and allow me to touch others in a positive way too.
I will go into blog withdrawal if I don’t check in with blog reads while I’m away…. especially if I’m gone for a lengthy time. If I’m not a good candidate I’ll be back by end of week — but will be several if I am. If I do stay though, I plan to give my work in healing my utmost focus and concentration. So maybe won’t be around as much – or commenting as much – but will check in for certain. What would I do without seeing those surreal images of yours from a magical land I will most likely never get to experience.? 🙂 ~ You be well my friend. Much Love ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 1:34 PM
Wonderful poem and beautiful image Robyn. I;’m awed by your courage and creativity in the middle of all your physical challenges. Do hope this is the answer for you, and you find the healing that you seek. warmest wishes for your well being, may your great spirit continue to fly.
January 25, 2013 at 3:03 AM
Oh Valerie – thank you soooo much… means a lot to know you feel this way ~ the creativity is therapy — and the courage – well, it seems by best bet right now. Hoping for something positive to come of this trip….and will keep in touch ~ much love to you dear friend ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 10:57 PM
sweet Robyn. I enjoyed your poem and picture – very deep and touching! I want you to know that in my thoughts, every day, you are feeling better and better – please, remember that 🙂 much love to you! ~~
January 25, 2013 at 3:54 AM
Poojy ~ thank you dear friend. Poem and image here very much in sync with my mood ~ it’s all mixed up I guess — gotta say YES to the sun and the storms — you know what I mean? Very very appreciate your loving thoughts for me ~ keeping the spirits up and hoping for some good stuff ahead! Much love always, Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:04 PM
This is both a stunning poem and photograph, Robyn. And I hope this new therapy helps you. Lots of love always!
January 25, 2013 at 5:12 AM
So much appreciate that (and you) dear Yaz ! Yes — hopeful to at least make some progress with this journey. Following my own instincts, which I know you would say has to be the way to go ~ Much Love to you ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:06 PM
I am sending so much Love to you, Robyn, and Prayers for your healing and relief from you pain. Your faith and strength are inspirational, my thoughts with be with you, heart surrounding you….deeply, Linda
January 25, 2013 at 6:19 AM
Thank you so much my beautiful friend. Can always feel your heart Linda ~ so appreciate and hope you are doing well too. So much Love ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:08 PM
I wish you the best. I hope your journey brings new beginnings.
January 25, 2013 at 6:55 AM
Thank you so much dear Carl for your loving wonderful wishes. I do appreciate ~ xRobyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:09 PM
Dear Robyn, Loved today’s writing. Looks like you have a good plan. Wishing you the very best. oxo Mindy
January 25, 2013 at 7:17 AM
Thank you so much Mindy ~ yes my writing here was pretty reflective of where I’m at right now (all over the place 🙂 ) ~ but that is life I suppose. I’m optimistic that at least will get a better handle on my prognosis where trying to make strides without surgery is concerned. Keep me posted on you ~ Love to you x Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:11 PM
This is sooooo good.
Thanks for posting.
January 25, 2013 at 7:55 AM
Oh Sedge ~ soooo happy you liked …. gotta open our arms to all of life i suppose – the sun and the storms too… I’m -a-trying ~ Love to you! Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:12 PM
January 27, 2013 at 7:30 AM
Loved the poem and photo Robyn. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way, hoping your plan and journey are successful. May the love and support from your family and friends help guide you throughout your journey.
January 25, 2013 at 8:07 AM
Oh Kathy — so happy to see you here – thank you dear friend – am very happy to know you enjoyed my creative burst! Also extremely grateful for your loving thoughts and prayers for my upcoming exploration. Hoping for progress and staying optimistic. Very blessed to have such a loving support network of friends and family! Fantasy would be to visit little daughter in Spain this spring ~ but if not able — she’s doing a good job with skype and text. Sending lots of love to you and yours ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:16 PM
Dear Robyn, you are a strong woman and I believe you will recover from your illness and pain, I will pray for you sweet sister.
Bless you. Stay Strong.
January 25, 2013 at 8:20 AM
Oh Tahani – that means a great deal to me. Thank you my friend. I am not sure where I’m headed with all this, but trying to follow my instincts, and willing to explore… and work hard to heal. So grateful for your blessings and prayers ~ much Love to you ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:18 PM
You will be in my thoughts and prayers dear Robyn. Safe travels to you and blessings for strength and perseverance. Please check in with my blog some time to give me an update, if you have time. Blessings, Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 8:38 AM
I will for sure Robyn ~ have you been posting? I don’t recall seeing you come up in reader lately? Thank you so much for all your loving wishes and prayers — means the world to me ~ Love to you my dear friend! ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:19 PM
if wishes of all the people you have touched with your story and your writings is some indication of the outcome of this new leg of your journey, then rest assure, it will bring you relief and positive things.
We will keep you in our thoughts.
January 25, 2013 at 8:41 AM
Clarice, sweet friend ~ that is such a lovely comment. Thank you so very much. I am trying to be optimistic and realistic too… but feel very good that it will be a step in the right direction. So appreciate your loving wishes … Much Love ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:36 PM
Oh dear, doll. I hope everything will work out the way you want and need. Take your time. But be back to us. We’ll be waiting.
January 25, 2013 at 9:53 AM
Thank you my dearest Chatty Owl ~ you are a doll as well and I appreciate you warm words. Yes – will keep everyone informed as I know more — So much Love ~ Robyn
January 25, 2013 at 11:37 PM
Robyn you are so courageous and very strong. I hope this new treatment helps you so you won’t feel so much pain and so you could enjoy life.
January 25, 2013 at 10:42 AM
Aww thank you Renee. That means a lot… I am trying to keep positive and just have a good feeling about this particular practitioner I’m traveling to see. Seems to be a lovely person and a know his body mechanics…. so hopefully may avoid more surgeries. Will keep you posted ~ Thank you xo Love to you ~ Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 1:00 AM
Good luck to you Robyn, I will be hoping there will be something that can relieve if not cure your relentless problems… Best wishes to you…x
January 25, 2013 at 12:03 PM
Chris thank you – and will definitely want to be in touch with you on whatever I learn, especially knowing you are also dealing with aftermath of this same surgery I had. This is strictly a rehab focus – nothing invasive… Will let you know ~ in meantime hope you are doing ok over there ~ much love x Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 1:02 AM
Fabulous Robyn! The cadence in this poem was all alluring, the words telling!
January 25, 2013 at 2:36 PM
Oh thank you sweet friend. So glad you liked it – right about how I’m feeling right now before I leave town — gotta be open to it all. So much Love to you Resa ~ xo Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 1:03 AM
Take care in your travels, Robyn! Will you be gone for long? Love to you. xo
January 26, 2013 at 9:43 AM
Thanks Resa ~ Leaving tomorrow… but not sure when will return. Depends on if I’m a good candidate for this program. I am thinking if I am will be there at least 3or 4 weeks…but will be connected so hopefully blogging some too. Will keep you posted ~ xo Love, RL
January 26, 2013 at 12:24 PM
Okay dear Robyn. Take care! xo love Resa
January 26, 2013 at 3:18 PM
Beautiful beautiful beautiful post! I read your poem a few times over and over and loved it each time. I hope the recovery efforts go well for you and that this person can help you. I have faith that there are methods, people and energies out there that we don’t yet know about that can help and I’ll be sending you positive vibes the whole time. I look forward to the next post. -AB
January 25, 2013 at 3:05 PM
Arash – that meant the world to me…. soooo thrilled this touched you. Lots of messages here – and I know you got them all. Yes – I agree with you — there is a lot to be said for finding the right methods, the right teachers, healers etc. I get a good vibe on this particular practitioner. I discovered him online 2 years ago – and have been following his work (webinars/books etc.) ~ has understanding of both the mechanical/scientific aspects – and also the energetic ones. Just seems like a unique soul to me– I hope my instincts are good. Thank you for your loving well wishes – will keep you posted – and keep an eye on you too ~ hope you are keeping your spirits up my friend ~ love to you, Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 1:08 AM
Like everybody else I admire your courage and initiative. I wish you the best of success because you so deserve it. V.
January 25, 2013 at 5:21 PM
Oh Vera — thank you so much. Truly appreciate your friendship and loving wishes… Much Love your way always ~ Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 1:09 AM
Much love and hope for you Robyn and may this new approach yield something really helpful for you. Keep being brave – it’s got you so far. Thinking of you and sending a very big hug, Ruth xx
January 25, 2013 at 5:59 PM
Thank you my dear friend. I so appreciate and will keep you posted. Much love to you Ruth ~ xo RL
January 26, 2013 at 2:58 AM
I am praying that this medical professional has a program that will work for you Robyn, relieving you of the pain that you always carry with you. You are such a source of strength and courage to us all. Let the healing energy that so many of us send to you surround you and give you some comfort. Blessings to you Robyn.
January 25, 2013 at 6:51 PM
LuAnn ~ so much thanks for your loving wishes and prayers. I am just following an instinct and it may be a little crazy but I think I will at least gain more insight and understanding about what to do with these loose joints to better hold them where they are happy and don’t cause such pain. Have been observing and following this man’s work for 2 years – and keep going back to it … so maybe he will be a guide. So appreciate your kind words and support always ~ Blessings and Love ~ Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 3:01 AM
I pray that he is your answer Robyn.
January 26, 2013 at 9:28 AM
Thank you so much LuAnn ~ or at least a beginning to some progress would be good too… Love to you ~R
January 26, 2013 at 12:25 PM
Dear Robyn, I also send you my love and prayers, from the heart.
Feel this amazing energy flowing towards you from all of us. We all love you and think of you.
You are a beautiful amazing woman , strong and gifted, and you will find your balance and strength once again.
January 25, 2013 at 7:04 PM
You are so very kind dear Ela ~ and I have come to really enjoy your spirit through reading your work. Means a lot that you have a good feeling for me — and can feel the love ~ I hope you are right – balance in my skeletal system is my fantasy ~ right now it has mind of its own … so I will remember your words — thank you sweet friend ~ RL
January 26, 2013 at 3:03 AM
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January 25, 2013 at 8:14 PM
So honored ~ and wonderful not to be “finished” with you Paul! Thank you so so much ~ Be well and I’ll definitely be sure to check in with you when I get settled! ~ Much Love x Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 3:05 AM
I will be thinking of you and keeping you lifted up to God in prayer. I agree with everyone – you are a beautiful soul and until next we meet in cyberspace I send you my hugs and God’s blessings and healing.
January 25, 2013 at 8:48 PM
Thank you so much dearest Patty… I truly appreciate and will be connected – so hopefully will not be long before an update ~ much love ~ Robyn
January 26, 2013 at 12:32 PM
Sending you all positive thoughts and energy.
January 25, 2013 at 9:17 PM
So much thanks to you Mike ~ very much appreciate your good thoughts for me ~ much love friend ~ RL
January 26, 2013 at 12:52 PM
Beautiful and moving words. Sending positive thoughts, energy, and love,
January 25, 2013 at 11:45 PM
Thank you sweet friend… so appreciate William ~ and so happy you enjoyed the post ~ x RL
January 26, 2013 at 1:00 PM
sending you tons and tons of love xxxxxx ps- your most beautiful poem ever – i think xxx safe journey xxxx safe heart, body and soul xo
more love >>>> your way xoxoxo C
January 26, 2013 at 2:16 AM
Thank you for all the love Cat ~ I can feel it. Also so happy you liked this poem ~ I know now “all romance” ~ but I think when we are open and receptive to all life shows up , “we say yes to it all “… and from that the love really flows …. Will be in touch for sure ~ Love to you with all my heart ~ x RL
January 26, 2013 at 1:02 PM
“yes to it alllllllllllllllllllll ” xxxxxxxxxxxx beautiful Robyn ……………. with heart wide open for sure …….
tons of love on your journey xxx
be safe xo
January 26, 2013 at 2:42 PM
Darling, just a little note to say I am thinking of you and wish you everything good, with healing on it’s wings. You will be in my heart until you are thru this journey you have embarked upon and often i will light my candle for you. much love and peace, dear one. xox linda
January 26, 2013 at 2:32 AM
Oh thank you dear friend…just got out of bath ~ and readying for bed – one more day to get my act together — you would think I am taking a 1 year journey to Europe the way I am here… tough as I am trying to put all the tools in suitcases — I have balls and theracanes (do you roll on balls or pound muscles with metal sticks?) ~ and have to fit in my pillow and my heating pad etc. etc. ~ as I was saying earlier to someone – have become a “high maintenance girl” ~ 😦 there was a time I could sleep in a sleeping bag on any floor no problem. Anyway — maybe should remember the lavender oil- yoga dvd — candles — I will try to think of it as adventure — not stress. You are an angel and i can see wings very easily when I look at your photo ~ Blessings and Love ~ RL
January 26, 2013 at 2:56 AM
Robyn, Your poem is beautiful. It speaks of the transformation of life that I see you experiencing as you go forward in your journey, and where you have been. I haven’t had a chance to stop by your blog in a while, so I am just rejoining you today. It sounds like the pain you have been experiencing has allowed you to re-imagine and discover life, by giving yourself this opportunity, which I pray and hope provides you with a new source of healing in your life. Although you leave with uncertainty, I see much gift in your journey, as this is a gift you are offering yourself. And this is a beautiful courageous love you are offering yourself. Turn to this inner gift you have, each time you struggle or doubt. It is a gift the Spirit has bestowed within you as you go forward. My love and prayers are all around you, Blessings to you always, Erin
January 26, 2013 at 10:49 AM
Oh Erin ~ thank you so so much. Can feel those prayers – and your love all around me ~ yes… uncertainty but also faith and anticipation for something to shift and improve. I agree the poem is a lot about opening to it all ~ the beauty and the struggle. Really trying to stay in an attitude of acceptance and peace no matter what. Not always easy when pain causes such a visceral type resistance…. but the heart and mind can be guided I think… by the spirit – yes ~ Love to you dearest one ~ so appreciate your encouragement ~ xRobyn
January 26, 2013 at 10:41 PM
I love the alliteration in these lines. Beautifully written!
January 26, 2013 at 2:35 PM
So thrilled to hear you enjoyed ~ and appreciated diashissoul! Thank you dear friend ~ and sending much love your way ~ RL
January 26, 2013 at 10:43 PM
love these last two lines, Robyn…safe travels and praying that help is found….drop me a line to keep me posted…xoxomeryl
January 27, 2013 at 9:29 AM
Thank you Meryl ~ so glad you enjoyed… crazy days – but hanging in. xxoo Love
January 29, 2013 at 6:45 PM
Sculptures of life do indeed grow amidst shadows of pain. When you share your pain, you share your life and remind us of ours.
Good luck with all you have ahead of you.
January 27, 2013 at 8:30 PM
Thank you so much Tim ~ that is quite beautiful to think about – truly ~ x Much Love to You ~ managing ok so far 🙂
January 29, 2013 at 6:46 PM
I am sending some of my very best hope for you on your journey that this will be something that helps you. You are such a lovely person and it would be wonderful for you to find a way to feel better! I have loose joints myself, and paying more attention to the ways I move has been a lot of help.
January 27, 2013 at 11:23 PM
Thanks so much Jessica ~ means a great deal to me. Things are going well thus far ~ will keep you posted x RL
January 29, 2013 at 6:47 PM
That is a remarkably beautiful poem my dearest one. Straight from the heart I think and of course the photograph stunningly matches your words as always. I’ve been preoccupied with several issues so I’m late on getting over here, but as we discussed earlier, I am hopeful that you and I can stay in close touch with one another. Your friendship means much to me Robyn and I am there with you in spirit and love. As always sending positive energy your way, hope to hear from you soonest bestest friend of mine, with sincerely love, Penny xoxoxoxox, please take care of you!!!!!
January 28, 2013 at 1:53 AM
Oh Penny ~ thank you for your lovely words. No worries, I know you too are dealing with some issues and I hope whatever they are you are coping ok and managing to get things sorted out. Please keep me posted … I am out of town for the next month or so … navigating a new city and working on a promising program to help me get a head of the pain… or at least get more insight before accepting invitations to any more operating rooms. Things should settle some soon ~ this week has been crazy ~ found me a “home” and moved into a lovely apartment yesterday. Hoping to make the best of the month. Sending you tons of love and warm hugs — and very positive energy for ease and flow —love you much ~ Robyn
January 30, 2013 at 11:09 AM
I think I’m close to working things out, whew, what a ride I’ve been on the last couple months. I will share soon, Pretty sure I’m getting back on the right track, but like I said what a trip the last few months has been. Please know it in no way involves my wonderful family, Christina and all are fine and doing well, it was/is personal to me. Getting my back wacked out of shape didn’t help and then the unexpected passing of a close friend just sort of took me over the top emotionally for a bit, but starting to be a little more stable, have one more big problem to solve and then I think all will be good to go again.
Now as for where you are I hope that your navigation is going well re: the new city with no unexpected additional concerns for you. I am so very hopeful with this program that it is a “very good thing” for you. All my (extra – ha,ha) energy (no seriously, was laughing at myself for taking life too bloody seriously for awhile) as I was saying many positive thoughts continuously headed your way from me and my “energy flow” is rebounding again and sending that along to you also, much much love and affection, I thank you for your positive energy flow I did receive it, and at a time it was needed. – you are very special to me and never far from my thoughts – hope the next few weeks are good ones for you Robyn, tons of love and hugs received, much appreciated and returned to you (more so if possible) as always take very special care of you, much much love for you ~ Penny
January 30, 2013 at 2:42 PM
Your words and photos have carved a special place in my head and heart.
May you find all you seak. with love, Eddie
January 28, 2013 at 8:40 AM
Eddie ~ thank you dearest soul. I so appreciate you and your good wishes. Sending love and light – and blessings of every sort ~ xo RL
January 30, 2013 at 11:10 AM
Wow! I hope everything works out well for you. I shall keep an eye out for any updates. I have reset my notices to receiving only once a week because I was getting overwhelmed with them all, but I shall personally endeavor to check your blog for updates. Take care. 🙂
January 28, 2013 at 10:42 AM
Thank you so much Kev ~ getting settled in finally. Probably will be a 4 week experiment, and I will try to post from here. So appreciate your encouragement and support ~ and wishing you all of life’s gifts my friend!
Love to you ~ RL
January 30, 2013 at 11:12 AM
“and faith has been born” Nothing tells it best than your inner strength radiating through your inspiration oozing smile. In our thoughts and prayers. Peace.
January 29, 2013 at 2:40 AM
Oh TBT ~ so lovely to hear this from you. Thank you kindly dear friend — I will be in good touch as soon as the dust settles. So far I’m encouraged and have been very busy /challenged— but in good spirits ~ Appreciate all your support always ~ With Love, RL
January 30, 2013 at 11:13 AM
February 2, 2013 at 11:29 AM
I love your artwork and poetry. Always a good journey into your thoughts. The photos give life to your words. I hope all is well with you. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
January 30, 2013 at 9:53 AM
John, thank you so much for such a wonderful compliment. I most often start with the photo ~ and they help me find the words. All is well here ~ and hope I will be able to continue posting very soon ~ from a new land! 🙂 ~ Sending Love and Blessings ~ Robyn
January 30, 2013 at 3:12 PM
I have sooooo been thinking of you since you said you were going to be out for a few weeks. Yes, holding you in light and love. Oh such prayers of healing. Dear Robyn, know that you are being held…in mystical ways. Please do keep us posted. I think of your beautiful curls, deep smile and eyes, hurting body, and lines of poetry that stir my soul. You breath life into this world, Robyn. LOVE TO YOU, Lisa
January 31, 2013 at 9:27 AM
Oh Lisa … nearly in tears from your comment. Thank you sooo for such a beautiful sentiment – and your heart-felt prayers… It is going slow here ~ but remaining hopeful. I know it won’t be a magic cure ~ but just to gain insight and understanding about how to manage and control the pain would be wonderful. I am also seeing a new city and getting a break from my isolated routine at home…. So all is well and I will hopefully have more time for computer this weekend. So much Love ~ Robyn
January 31, 2013 at 9:34 PM
Oh Robyn, I just replied and it seemed to “go away.” Robyn, sending you love and light and healing. Yes, seems like this is a new season for you…I am glad you are following the intuitive whispers of your heart and body and trying this out. And also taking a break from the routine at home that has been a bit isolating. I have a bit of a concussion right now (me and a treadmill…yikes) so I am taking it easy…resting a lot. Such love to you, dear heart. You inspire me — your poetry, your photos, your life. Love, Lisa
February 1, 2013 at 4:09 PM
Lisa thank you sweet friend… I am trying. Every day I try to “begin again” ~ stumble and falls are part of it. What on earth – you have a concussion… I once walked across empty moving treadmill at gym (thinking it was off) … horrific injury. I hope you are ok… pain skull? Keep me posted on this, heal heal heal!!! I am sending energies for very quick recovery. So grateful for your lovely sentiments here… xo Robyn
February 2, 2013 at 5:56 PM
Oh, Robyn, I’m so sorry to learn about this. I really hope this doctor can help you. I empathize with you as it has been over three years since my last surgeries and I still have widespread persistent pain. I know how the creativity and artwork can help in these situations, and your creativity is exquisite, deep, moving and insightful. Sending you lots of healing energy and e-hugs.
January 31, 2013 at 8:07 PM
Hi dear Fergi ~ yes I hope so as well… and will be thrilled if I just leave here with better insight and strategies to control the joints and manage the pain. So far it has been a great experience and I have a lot of faith in this dr. as a specialist in this area. you too post-surgeries with such awful unrelenting pain..? I am so sorry to hear that. Yes — the creative journey is one we can take — and at least emotionally – a wonderful place to go.
Much Love ~ xo Robyn
January 31, 2013 at 9:38 PM
I am catching every time you click the like button Lovely Robyn. Always looking forward to getting your updates though, many of us are hopeful and concerned for you! Prayers always for you. Stay safe and travel at light speed!
January 31, 2013 at 11:21 PM
Hi sweet friend ~ yes … I am watching everyone’s blog but not a lot of time for usual comments…. just getting settled in . It is cold!! I think 10 degrees tonight. I miss my bathtub! LOL ~ Doing ok with the healing project. Will not be an instant miracle – but learning new things about this wonderfully wicked body of mine — and hoping to leave here in a few weeks with better tools to manage my pain and intricacies. Only 3 days so far so too soon to know. Thank you dear Stan ~ will try to get a post up soon too xRL
January 31, 2013 at 11:29 PM
Best of luck!
February 1, 2013 at 4:03 PM
Thank you so much ~ x 🙂
February 1, 2013 at 4:13 PM
Robyn, I was moved to share this post of yours on the Barefoot Barn’s facebook page. There are so many who live with chronic pain. Your life inspires so many. I thought I’d send it out to those who might follow the BB and be experiencing pain. With this concussion, I have a renewed tenderness for those who live with pain…every day. Such love and strength to you. Love, Lisa
February 1, 2013 at 4:21 PM
Wow Lisa ~ this is such a wonderful honor you have bestowed upon me! I is true — so many suffer and it’s very much an invisible/mystery type of agony for so many. I am reading a book now called “The Language of Pain” — it is just such an elusive thing… If I can inspire even one person — it would bring me great joy. Please feel better very very soon. Is there improvement? ~ Sending you healing hugs – and much Love ~ Robyn
February 2, 2013 at 5:59 PM
Hi, I am so happy to share with you, that I have nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award.
Please click on the link http://chattyowl.com/2013/02/02/very-inspiring-blogger-award/ to accept your award and check out the rules.
February 2, 2013 at 9:35 AM
Thank you so much dear friend.. very touched for this honor ! Much Love ~ RL
February 2, 2013 at 2:15 PM
Robyn, dear friend, I’m sorry that I haven’t been around lately and missed this post; unfortunately health issues have reared their heads with me the last few weeks again as well. This is an absolutely fabulous photo, and I love the poem – I so understand where you’re coming from! I hope and pray this proves to be what you need to help you with your own health issues; and send out many healing energies, thoughts and prayers your way in the hopes this works out well for you. Keeping you close in my heart always, and sending much love, Julie xoxox
February 3, 2013 at 6:41 PM
Oh Julie – neve be sorry… I completely get it, and am soooo sorry you have been struggling so much recently. Are you dealing with same issues as you’ve been only exacerbated? I so hope no new problems for you.
Flattered that you liked this ~ and thought the poem well-done. Yes I know you do know where I am coming from on this… Sending much Love and will keep you in heart and prayer as well ~ Love and Gratitude ~ Robyn
February 4, 2013 at 4:11 PM
Hi Robyn, mostly the same issues, but my spine has been misbehaving terribly for almost a month now – I think it just likes to see me writhe in pain, or maybe it was missing my cane too much, lol. I know I’m making a bit of a joke about it, but sometime humor helps me to get through the day, and I already spent my quota of tears for the month. (grins) I have a new registered nurse coming on the 12th to help me with the assessor section of my provincial disability application (finally) and I’m going to see if she might have some other ideas that may help as well. Thank you so much for your caring, especially when you have even more to cope with yourself; I love you even more for that. Keeping you in my prayers, thoughts and heart, and sending much love, Julie xoxox
February 4, 2013 at 10:11 PM
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Thank you Little L… Sending hug hug to you as you and ongoing healing wishes for your journey too…-RL
February 11, 2013 at 4:44 PM
It took me sometime to scroll down 150 plus comments. This writing is simple and very well done at the beginning, it defines the subsequent imagery.
February 12, 2013 at 9:33 PM
quiquan ~ many thanks for your lovely comment today. Yes ~ I do try to keep my writing simple and also evoke feelings that are inherent in most of us. Very much try to use my blog a s a portal for healing self — and others too! So appreciate your kindness and welcome !! ~RL
February 13, 2013 at 12:19 PM
Thanks for continuing to read my blog.beebeesworld
February 16, 2013 at 8:08 PM
most welcome beebee ~ xo
February 16, 2013 at 8:50 PM
Another really lovely poem. I hope they find a way to help you and stabilise your problem 🙂
February 28, 2013 at 8:41 AM
So much thanks ~ yes have been working hard trying to make headway — progress is slow but will keep going ~ Much Love ~ 🙂 RL
February 28, 2013 at 5:30 PM
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May 24, 2013 at 10:26 PM