Pain Shadow II

On the deserted beach
I walk with a pain shadow.
Hip searing with each step
I move forward slowly.

My joint tears away.
A sharp arrow pierces through me.
I stop to find stillness yet the
pain shadow follows.

Gazing into the ocean,
I inhale deeply
then exhale with force
trying to release the pain.

But it won’t let go.

I must abandon this pain shadow.
This constant companion.
This unwelcome thing.
That has attached itself to me.

19 years of unrelenting pain.
Countless attempts to escape
to normal days, when the beach
meant walks and waves; picnics and laughter.

I climb the wooden stairs to look down
on the wide expanse of shoreline.
In pain I stand tall above the sprawling
desolate beach that goes on forever.

I envision myself burying the pain shadow
beneath the sandy surface,
deep in a restrictive dark hole
where it can no longer define my world.

And in that moment I am free.

This entry was posted on March 23, 2012 by Robyn Lee. It was filed under Pain Shadow Series, Winter 2012 and was tagged with beach, breath, clouds, deserted, freedom, hip, hole, ocean, pain, reflect, release, sand, shadow, spine, wind.

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6 responses

recoverythrumylens

Such a searing image….so wonderfully honest and human….

March 24, 2012 at 8:38 AM

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- throughthehealinglens
  
  Thanks so much Meryl…means a lot!
  
  March 24, 2012 at 7:42 PM
  
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Jill

Beautiful image and poem.

March 24, 2012 at 8:41 AM

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- throughthehealinglens
  
  Oh Jill, thanks so much…so glad you enjoyed. As you know – a tough one for me, but I did make an official ‘Pain Shadow’ series and have included it in the ‘drop-down’ menu at the top of my blog under sentiments. Hope you are having a good weekend!
  
  March 24, 2012 at 7:52 PM
  
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cooleur

Great image

March 25, 2012 at 12:50 PM

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throughthehealinglens

So appreciate cooleur!

March 25, 2012 at 6:39 PM

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