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Originally posted on Art Gowns:

Were you ever inspired to send your Fairy God Sister something very, very special?

Photo © Robyn Lee

Photo © Robyn Lee

If you have then I know your Fairy God Sister went to the hospital for a surgery that could change her life. Here is a message from Robyn.

With all my heart, I thank you in advance for sending prayers out  … My big day is Thursday at the NY Hospital for Special Surgery. I will be having a difficult and complex Total Hip Replacement for Congenital Hip Dysplasia by Dr. Edwin Su. I was told to expect a lengthy recovery process… but HOPEFULLY this will be the start of something VERY GOOD!  

Love and Blessings Always! 
Robyn
Photo © Robyn Lee

Photo © Robyn Lee

So, I sent, Robyn, my FGS, one of the Gautier “Corsets Charming” all wrapped up securely in a “Poetry Shirt”.

This “Poetry Shirt” is an idea we…

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Reflecting: On You

 

In
the
dawn

.

of
my
quest

~

I
take
pause
.

and
assess;

~

All
the
light

.

I
have
known

~

in
this
sphere

.

I
call
home;

~

It’s
your

.

unyielding
grace

~

like
a

.

sea
of
embrace;

~

Sharing
beauty

.

and
song

~

Lending
hope

.

ever
strong;

~

Now
I
stop

.

and
reflect

~

Waves
of

.

love
.

and
respect;

~

Knowing

.

while
we’re
apart

~

in
your
hands

.

rests
my

heart.

~

©Robyn Lee

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To YOU:  my precious friends,

Do not worry — I promise to return as soon as I can! The time has come for me to embark on more in-depth medical explorations. It has been nearly 3 years since having undergone  bilateral hip surgeries gone wrong.  I have since learned that my hip sockets were extremely shallow from the start, and having a very flexible body-type, the surgery designed to repair my labrum and eliminate impingement by shaving bone, only served to make my hips more unstable.

Although I have given my all to an extensive program of strength and movement training, and conservative healing in every possible sense, I continue to experience progressive severe and constant daily pain and ongoing hip dislocation.

Unfortunately, I spend the majority of my waking hours exercising (non-weight bearing), and manipulating…trying to persuade my femur to stay its very shallow, unstable hip socket (I have no bone covering the front and side of my femoral head, and a labrum that is detached again). I spend a lot of time on the floor!

I  truly hoped to avoid this next leg of my journey, as I would so much rather spend my time at the beach and here with you! Nonetheless, even as I have achieved optimum strength and fitness, obtaining  glutes of steel, and legs appearing fit enough to run races, I cannot go on living with this level of pain and functional limitation on a daily basis.  The simple acts of walking, and sitting in a chair elevate my pain to levels I won’t even try to describe.  Thankfully I have been able to continue my biking and mat routines, squatting etc.   The truth is, I love life way too much, and want to participate in ALL of it.

I am scheduled to undergo several specialized tests this week at an esteemed orthopedic hospital in NYC, and will be consulting with surgeons and specialists over the next few months  in an attempt to formulate a sound plan of action for my complex case.  In the meantime, I will be posting on my blog  less often, but will do my best to continue visiting all of yours,  and providing updates whenever I can.

Please know how much you all mean to me … your love and support has been a true lifeline over the past two years.  I am not sure how I could have survived this challenge without all of you incredible souls.   Deep Thanks ~ and loving wishes always.

With all my heart,
Robyn

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Basking

 

Where

.

I
float
away

~

Drift
on
dreams

.

so
deep;

~

Inhaled
memories

~

Precious
grains

.

I
keep;

~

Feeling

.

like
you’re
near

~

Miles

.

melt
away;

~

I
can
hear

.

your
song

~

Heartstrings
strum

.

and
play;

~

Patiently

.

I
bask

~

Nestled
by

.

the
sea;

~

Awaiting
sunsets

.

vowed

.

just
to

.

you

and

me.

~

©Robyn Lee

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for permitting me to publish the above photo
and inspired verse.


These Days

 

They
say

.

these
days

.

come
only
once;

~

These
games

.

we
play

.

meant
just
for
us;

~

We
sit
and
watch

.

the
shifting
tide;

~

We
surf
the
waves

.

savor
the
ride;

~

 Winds
lift
us
high

.

though
just
so
far;

~

A
kiss
transports

~

us
to
the
stars;

~

These
whispered
words

.

we
shan’t
forget;

~

Invading
space

.

we
can’t
regret;

~

Like
sand
trails

.

with
no

end
or
start,

~

we

trace
a
path

.

through

.

timeless
hearts.

~~~

©Robyn Lee

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Lonicera Japonica

 

Breath
of
seduction

~

Infusing
the
air;

~

No
proposal

nor
prelude

~

No
time

to
prepare;

~

Sweet
balm
bewilders

~

Distraction
delights;

~

Dewy
flesh

clinging
softly

~

to
ripe
appetite;

~

This
feeling

~

This
hunger

~

These
lips

shall
not
wait;

~

Craving

~

honey–laced

promise

~

to

Intoxicate.

 

©Robyn Lee

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Fervor

 

Endure
her
heat

.

Adore
her
power

.

Engage
her
blaze

.

in

the
fervent
hour;

~

Watch
form
emerge

.

in

her
scarlet
dance

.

Revere
her
spell

.

Resign
her
trance;

~

But

.

You
mustn’t
touch

.

for

.

she
won’t
be
tamed

~

Rousing
spark
of

.

h e a r t

.

Your

eternal
flame.
~

                                                                                                                                      ©Robyn Lee

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Embody

 

A
Fantasy

.

you
are

to
me;

~

A
Lover

.

who
won’t
cease

to
be;

~

A
Song

.

of

summer
reverie;

~

A
Prayer

.

that
grants
my

wistful
plea.

~

A
Dream

.

immersed
in

ecstasy;

~

Forever

~

You

~

Embody

Me.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Weep

 

Do
not
despair

~

I’m
here
with
you;

~

Behind
the
glass

~

I
share
your
view;

~

On
scattered
leaves

~

Time
withers
by;

~

Unruly
storms

~

 Tears
undenied;

~

We
conquer
doubt

~

Unearth
the
call;

~

Face
willowed
fear

~

Withstand
the
fall;

~

No
matter
what

~

Your
soul

~

I
keep;

~

and

~

Drink
the
tears

~

your

~

Green
heart

~

weeps.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Dark Embrace

 

Will You
show
me

~

your
deepest
darkest
side

~

where
roots

~

writhe
and
hide

~

where
your
selves

~

collide?

~~~

Will You
let
me

~

touch

~

the
part
of

~

you

~

that
resists

~

its
source

~

and

~

obscures

~

your
view?

~~~

Will You
meet
me

~

in
between
the

~

space

~

where
light
projects

~

Love

in
your
shadow’s

~

embrace.

~~~

©Robyn Lee

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We Know…

There are
some
things

~

 we
are
born
knowing;

~

We
know

~

we can
touch
the
sky

with
our
heart;

~

We
know

~

the
sea
will keep

 our
secrets
safe;

~

We
know

~

treasures
always
hide

in
places
unexpected;

~

We
know

~

we
are
worthy;

~

We
know

~

we
are
grace;

~

We
know

~

we
are
love;

~

And

~

when we
grow
up

~

all
we
truly
need

~

to
know

is:

REMEMBER

___


©Robyn Lee

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Mono No Aware

 

 

Wake
up

my love

’tis
spring

~

I’ve
come

with
offerings

~

songs
of
beauty

I
shall
sing

~

sweet
new
gifts

my
essence

brings;

……….

Wake up
my
love

’tis
spring

~

I’m right
outside

your
door

~

Do
you

notice

my
allure?

~

or

~

feel
the
breadth
of

my
adore?

……….

Wake
up

my love

’tis
spring

~

I’m
here

to

help
you
see

~

just
how
blissful

life
could
be

~

when
you
know

the
depths

of
me;

……….

Wake
up
my love

’tis
spring

~

Watch
me
blushing

in
the
breeze

~

let me
charm
you

as
I
please

~

soothe
your
soul 

~

with

~

grace
and
ease:
……….

Wake
up
my love

’tis
spring!

~

But
you

mustn’t

stop
or
wait

~

don’t
loose
sight

or
hesitate

~

for
tomorrow

~

’tis

too
late.

©Robyn Lee

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Please click here to learn more about the spiritual philosophy
that provided inspiration for this piece :  Mono No Aware 


Under Watch

Upon
your
throne

~

erect
and
tall;

~

Your
lofty
post

~

above
us
all;

~

Like
king

or
knight,

~

with
noble
reign,

~

defend
our
bliss

~

assert
restrain.

~

Beneath
your
watch,

~

with
strict
decree,

~

protect
our
lives,

~

Dear
Guard

~

of

Sea.

~

©Robyn Lee

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 feature image originally published 6/24/2012: Stillness


He Moves Me

Shalt
not
disturb

^

As
I
observe

^

His
form
commence

^

A
primal
dance;

^^^

I
stop

to
stare

^

I
dare

to
near

^

Can
feel

the
flow

^

Caught
in

his
trance;

^^^

With
gentle
strength

^

A
fluid
length

^

His
motion
finds

^

Artistic
grace;

^^^

He
fills

his
soul

^

Then
empties
whole

^

and

^

Moves
me

to

^

His
sacred
space.

^^^

©Robyn Lee

598821_4868298350183_446568124_nWarm thanks to the wonderful gentleman featured in my post today for permitting me
to share this candid photograph. My subject {Muse} has respectfully requested anonymity to preserve his privacy.

~
Hope You’ve Enjoyed!

~

Much Love to All

~
RL


Design Me

Design
me

Define
me

~

Discover
where

I’m
bold;

~

Create
me

Elate
me

~

Infuse
me

with
your
soul;

~

Feel
me

Reveal
me

~

Portray
me

as
you
know;

~

For
there
is

~

Truth
in
Love

~

And

~

Love
in
Truth;

~

Your
heart

~

has
shown

~

me
so.

~

©Robyn Lee

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~

Warm thanks to the very lovely and talented Resa McConaghy, of Queen’s end | Life at Queen’s end, King, Queensway and Roncesvalles who unbeknownst to me at the time, sketched the above caricature portrait to include in her recent  post In Amore Veritas.  After it was complete, Resa sent the sketch to me for approval, and I was fascinated to experience her artistic vision, especially considering we have never met, and have developed our special friendship solely through our blog comments. I believe she captured a very distinct facet of my inner- energy in her playful and  delightful rendition. Needless to say, I am both tickled and honored.

I must also add that I’m doubly flattered, since this is the second time I have served as “Muse” for Resa, an accomplished  film costume designer in Canada who has outfitted some of the world’s top starlets. If you have not yet seen my post Blue Venus, be sure to check out the stunningly exotic art-gown Resa designed and created  for me, featured in her wonderful collection Art Gowns” for Charity.

Resa thank you again for shining your light so brightly here. Clearly, it is you who inspire and heal us with your creative loving heart.
This animation is a treasured gift, and with it, I just may be inclined to start my own–  “Robyn Lee: The Super Heroine” series :) !

 In Amore Veritas!

~
So Much Love to All,
Robyn

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Each Night

Each night

he
comes
to my
window
unannounced,

~

watching
me
from
a
distance

through
starry
eyes.

~

Each night

in
all
his
splendor

~

cloaked
in
glowing
shades
of

dark
mystery,

~

I
sight
him
swaying

to
and
fro

masterfully
in the
evening
wind.

~

Each night

he
whispers
to
me;

deep
enchanting
words

I
feel,

yet
cannot
hear

~

for
his
language
is
unspoken,

and

his
charms,

of
another
world.

~

Each night

he

takes
my
breath

and

lifts
my
mortal
heart,

~

enveloping
me
fully

in
the
sphere
of

his
luminous
presence.

~

And

~

Each night,

before
he
goes,

he
kisses
me;

~

delivering
me
safely

~

to
slumber

~

where

~

I
know

~

now,

~

I
can

fly.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Our Path

“Come now
my
love,”

~

you
softly
say;

~

I
close
my eyes;

~

I
slip
away.

~

“Walk
swift,
our path,”

~

your
whisper
pleads;

~

I
find
my
breath

~

concede
my
need.

~

You
mark
the  trails

~

with
pines
of
gold;

~

You
guide
my
steps

~

whilst
truths
unfold;

~

Beneath
our
tree

~

I wait
for
you,

~

unearthing
dreams

~

we
never
knew.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Freewheeling

Ride me to freedom
Spinning dreams on silver ground
Destination unknown

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click here to read a short personal narrative
pertaining to this image: Freewheeling ~ narrative


Sands Of Time

As
moments
flow

~

imprints
remain;

~

Impassioned
tides

~

kiss

shimmering
grain;

~

I
reach
for
you

~

and

~

touch
your
hand,

 ~

whilst

~

Eternity

~

stirs

in
the
sands.

~

©Robyn Lee

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El Arte De Amor

Tracing
a
path

~

to
the
secret
enclave,

~

deep
within

her
pensive
soul;

~

Traversing
slowly

through

exotic
terrain,

~

He
navigates

the

fluent
contours

~

of
her

exquisite
architecture;

~

Accentuating

her
sheer
radiance

~

with
vibrant
hues

~

and
gentle
strokes;

~

Creating

light
and
space

~

and
hope

~

within
the
delicate
recesses

~

of
her

unspoken
dreams.

……….

And
then,

~

for
just a
brief
moment,

~

he
stills

his
beloved
brush,

~

whispers
a
prayer,

~

and
tenderly

~

paints

her
heart.

~

©Robyn Lee

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The lovely young woman featured in this image is  My Butterfly  at The Alcázare of Seville (Spanish “Reales Alcázares de Sevilla” or “Royal Alcazars of Seville” ).  Alcazars is a royal palace in Seville, Spain.  Originally a Moorish fort, It is the oldest royal palace still in use in Europe.


Pain Shadow (on exhibit)

~

On the deserted beach
I walk with a pain shadow.
Hip searing with each step
I move forward slowly.

My joint tears away.
A sharp arrow pierces through me.
I stop to find stillness yet the
pain shadow follows.

Gazing into the ocean,
I inhale deeply
then exhale with force
trying to release the pain.

But it won’t let go.

I must abandon this pain shadow.
This constant companion.
This unwelcome thing.
That has attached itself to me.

19 years of unrelenting pain.
Countless attempts to escape
to normal days, when the beach
meant walks and waves; picnics and laughter.

I climb the wooden stairs to look down
on the wide expanse of shoreline.
In pain I stand tall above the sprawling
desolate beach that goes on forever.

I envision myself burying the pain shadow
beneath the sandy surface,
deep in a restrictive dark hole
where it can no longer define my world.

And in that moment I am free.

~

©Robyn Lee: March 2012

recently selected for exhibit in the gallery  Escape From Pain – PainExhibit.org

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I am honored to announce that the above artistic photograph and accompanying prose poem has been selected for gallery inclusion at PainExhibit.org | A California Non-Profit Art Exhibit.  PainExhibit.org is an educational, visual arts exhibit by artists with chronic pain . The global not-for- profit organization is dedicated to creating awareness amongst healthcare providers and the public about chronic pain through art, and to give voice to the many who suffer in silence. I learned about this organization after reading an article in the NY Times featuring the organization and its mission.  Here is a link to the article  Pain as an Art Form – NYTimes.com.  Immediately I felt aligned with the goals and intention of this organization, and was moved by the works shared at the exhibit.

My Pain Shadow  (above) was an early post that I published about a year ago.  It was the 2nd piece in my  blog’s Pain Shadow Series,  and the first poetic/prose piece I wrote that reflected my innermost feelings about living the past 19+ years with severe chronic pain and health challenge.  As someone who has always done her best to bring as little attention as possible to her dilemma, I confess, this was a difficult piece to share publicly.  At the same time, I now realize it was also a transformational experience for me;  By creating art,  and opening my heart to others about this isolating and life-altering plight , I quickly learned  how beauty and art can be born of pain…how this art can inspire compassion, and can heal both artist and viewer.

After some encouragement by a dear friend, I submitted my work last winter to PainExhibit.org.  I’d nearly forgotten about the submission, when several months later, I was notified that my entry was indeed accepted, and would be included in the collection of  art displayed at the gallery entitled: Escape From Pain.  Please visit PainExhibit.org to learn more about this unique exhibit, and explore a variety of amazing works in the various galleries housed there.  I am extremely proud and honored to be a part of this collection, and the organization’s important mission.

Pain, especially when chronic, is a very difficult subject to understand and embrace. Often pain cannot be seen, and it is nearly impossible to articulate. Quite frankly, it is an isolating and frightening place to be. Art, whether it be through written word, painting, sculpture, photography, music or other, offers a powerful vehicle for universal expression and transformation. Pain channeled through the creative process allows both the artist and the observer a meaningful and deep connection, one that speaks directly to the heart of  the human experience.

With my whole heart, I want to take this opportunity to thank all of you who follow and support me, and my blog work.  Over the last year, this sacred space has become such an important part of my life, and of my healing path.  Always know how much your friendship, love and support of my artistic endeavors means to me. Each of you have touched me, and enriched my world through your presence and appreciation, and for this I am so grateful.

Much Love ~
Robyn Lee


Love’s Wings

Guide the way,
I’m  by
your
side

~

We’ll fly
beyond a
vast red
sky;

~

Above
the sea’s
ecstatic
waves

~

Around
a solar
flame
engraved;

~

You won’t
see me, but
feel my
fire

~

Pure heat that
fuels your
soul’s
desire;

~

There are no
rules, nor
risk…or
will

~

On
wings
of
love

~

where
worlds
stand
still.

~

©Robyn Lee

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Trust

Falling
with
speed

~

In
a
flurry
of
need

 ~

Through
bleak
cloudy
skies,

~

Past
cold
empty
eyes;

~

Winds
whip
her
around

~

Till
she
nearly
hits
ground;

~

But
so
gently
she
lands

~

Into
wise
caring

hands.

~

©Robyn Lee

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As I fly home from my 6 week journey, I write with a full heart. Many of you know, I am returning from Chicago, where I worked intensely with a rehabilitation specialist who I personally sought out after 2 years of struggle following unsuccessful hip surgeries, and progressive pain. My activities of daily living have been severely limited.

After being let down time and time again in my quest for help, I was in search of expert support and guidance, and wanted desperately to learn more about my mechanical dysfunctions, and train to develop the most  efficient movement patterns possible to reduce pain and improve function, despite having many ‘broken parts’. I wanted to do my best to maximize my potential to participate in the joys of life again.

My commitment to this journey was a leap of faith, as over the last 20 years I have been through countless physical therapy programs, and have undergone numerous medical and surgical interventions, most always resulting in disappointment and confusion.

I can honestly say this was different, and by far the best rehabilitation training experience I’ve ever had.
I am quite certain that trusting my own intuition led me to find  my way a very special healer and a unique approach.

I feel blessed to have “landed” in the hands of Dr. Evan Osar and his team.  Dr. Osar is the founder of Chicago Integrative Movement Specialists.  I encountered his pioneering work online  watching his webinars (for professionals), and observing him demonstrate his methods in numerous video presentations.  I also found additional insight in reading his books, and numerous articles.  I was immediately drawn to him and his work, as it made a tremendous amount of sense to me–given my  personal experience and heightened level of body awareness due to my painful condition.

Yes, It was my own “crazy” idea to contact him, and to then to temporarily relocate to the Chicago, Illinois so that I could train daily with him and his fine team. My family was initially hesitant, but eventually completely supportive, and then proud that I would undertake such a project by myself.  They also came to appreciate and understand why Dr. Osar’s approach to movement-based therapy was something I needed to explore.

As I return, now six weeks later, I reflect on the wonderful experience this has been. Each day I received very focused training (1.5 hours per day and assessment along with hours of homework). I worked hard, and gained a tremendous education with respect to functional movement, respiration and joint centration, all key elements in combating my pain and increasing my ability to move most efficiently, protect my joints, muscles and tendons, and prevent further injury. I learned the power of using imagery and cues to tap into neuromuscular control I did not even know I had ~ so many amazinget-attachment-3-aspx3g epiphanies.

I truly feel that Dr. Osar, Sara and Jenice have given me the gift of a special ‘toolbox’ filled with magical methods and techniques that I can revisit and expand upon as I continue my journey. They have also instilled in me new insight into my own body’s intelligence,  that which I can call on daily for support and healing. We made great strides, and although I have a long way to go, and we can’t be certain if more surgical intervention will be necessary, I am confident that no matter where my path leads, the support and wisdom I have gained last several weeks will serve me immensely.
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Perhaps most importantly, I have found in this healthcare team a restored faith and trust in the healing profession, which, until now, has let me down time and time again. I experienced wisdom, integrity and genuine caring through out my entire stay. Each day was approached with pure focused intention and integrity of spirit. I could not have asked to be in more competent hands than this, and know that my trust in Dr. Osar, Sara and Jenice was well-placed.

I am thrilled to be home now and excited to continue working hard to progress and grow with all I learned in Chicago. I plan to revisit Chicago Integrative Movement Specialists periodically, and to keep in touch with this wonderful group as I follow the comprehensive home program they provided.

Finally,  allow me to express my heartfelt appreciation to each of you dear friends who have been following my blog  throughout my journey these last 6 weeks. Your supportive words of encouragement and loving energies, has meant the world to me. It was so comforting to check in on your blogs while I was away, to find poetry, pictures, stories, warm messages and even a stunning art gown made in my honor :).  To me it truly does feel like our WordPress community is extended family. We share a very unique and heartfelt connection in many wonderful ways… and for this I am so grateful.

Much Love and Blessings
today and always
~

Robyn Lee

 


Captivated

His
eyes
held me
captive

~

from
the very
first
stare;

~

A
presence

~

A
power

~

Quelling
all
mortal
fear;

~

I
hungered
to
touch

~

his strong
noble
soul;

~

Delight
and
devour

~

Relinquish
control;

~

“But there’s
so much
at
stake”

~

I
heard
a
voice
say,

~

“He is not
of
your
kind,

~

there
are
boundaries
at
play.”

~

In
that
one final
moment

~

Our
eyes
locked
in
embrace

~

Knowing

~

we
would
meet once
again

A
new
time

~

A
new
place.

~

© Robyn Lee

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Blue Venus II


Waves
 of
inspiration

flow

from 
hearts
that 

love

~

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On Monday I received an email from my dear friend, Monica,
a very special lady I  first crossed paths with in the fall of 2010.
Facing similar challenges, Monica and I found the gift of friendship
after meeting on an internet medical support forum. Since that time,
we have become sisters of the soul… And, for this, I’m so grateful.

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After admiring Resa’s spectacular masterpiece art-gown Blue Venus this weekend,
 Monica sent me a wonderful poem she composed, explaining
that
 she was inspired by the stunning gown, combined with
the spirit she envisioned I would wear it.

I am deeply touched by her graceful heart, and
wanted to share her poetic healing words with each of you today.

 Paired with a shadow self-portrait, please enjoy this 3rd level
of artistic inspiration born of Resa’s  Blue Venus
 
Truly captivating verse, crafted by a very
talented poetess, and
beautiful friend.

Thank you
Monica!

With so much Love
~
Robyn Lee

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~

Wrapped in clouds and sky

her footfall gentle on the sand

eyes shining with bravery

trailing tranquility in her wake.

~

 Garbed in shimmering blue

Grecian goddess dancing

with iridescent fish from the sea

to the melody of hope and love.

~

Floating in sapphire silk,

singing to the ocean and stars

the wind answers back

as she walks like the night,  in beauty.

~
©Monica


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